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Some days

There are days when I go to where my wedding ring used to me, and I miss it.  I miss the way it felt on my finger.  I miss how pretty it was.  I miss what it meant.
Then reality comes rushing back.  I don't miss the jerk who gave it to me.  I don't miss the pain he caused me with his lies.  I don't miss the drama all his stupidity brought to my life.  I don't miss him.  I am so glad he is out of my life.
But, what I do miss is the dream I always had for my life.  I have had this card hanging on my wall for as long as I can remember.  This is what I always thought my life would be.  I would become a little old woman working outside with a little old man who loved me, spending my days and nights with a little old man who loved me and took care of me, sharing my thoughts and feelings with a little old me whom I loved more than life itself. 
NOT GONNA HAPPEN NOW!
So my dream has changed just a bit.  I am becoming that little old woman and I do still dream of retirement and working outside in a garden in Michigan in the summer with my children and grandchildren close by.  This is a dream I can have and will have.
And my life is beautiful just the way it is.  Have a great day!

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